I’ve always struggled with the idea of perfection. Type A tendencies run in my family’s veins. From grandfather to grandchild we all exhibit them in some form. Mine happen to come out during my endeavors. I don’t like to fail. (Does anybody?) I like to look like I’ve always got it all figured out. The person that excels easily. When it doesn’t go that way – as it doesn’t a good portion of the time because that’s life – I get overly self critical.
Blogging has brought these perfectionist tendencies to the surface again. Hard. While we know most things are manufactured to look and feel a certain way, those thoughts still creep up to the surface. That perfect picture. That perfect post. We’ve all aimed to achieve it more than once. There’s plenty of times I find myself falling into the comparison trap and getting frustrated when I can’t get things just right. I’ll even admit I’ve told myself “I GIVE UP!” before stomping away from my laptop or camera for a few minutes while huffing and puffing. (Spoiler Alert: I always come back. I can’t not give it my all.)
I’ve found myself being far too negative instead of cutting myself some slack. I know I’m not your normal blogger with my music and entertainment topics and that makes me incredibly worried that I’m “going to fail” because no other bloggers seem to fall in that niche. Instead of enjoying blogging as the hobby as it has always supposed to have been, I got wrapped up in the details. It’s gotten me stuck in a rut of not knowing what to post and having massive block in writing, pictures, and more.
Guess what? None of us are perfect. We all enjoy different things. I think blogging makes us forget that far too easily. This is my reminder to myself and to you all. Give yourself time to learn and grow. Know you will make mistakes. Stay true to yourself. Remember that those big bloggers have been at it for quite some time and have had their fare share of the learning curve. Tell yourself the amount of time and work that goes into each tiny detail to make those moments seem perfectly picturesque. It’s not reality. Do something only because you love it.
I need to learn to be my biggest cheerleader. Blogging is meant to be fun. I started this journey to share my passion about music with others. It may not be for everyone and that’s okay. If I started to write about some of the blogging common topics solely for numbers, it would be lacking in authenticity. I may also make plenty of mistakes along the way. While I would love for this little space to land me some dream opportunity working with music, at the end of the day I have to remember it’s solely for my enjoyment. Numbers and perfectionism don’t matter near as much as we think they do. I may write music post after music post after music post and as long as I love it, even if it’s getting zero views – it needs to make me happy. THAT’S WHAT MATTERS. Perfect or not.
How do you deal with perfectionist spells? How do you remind yourself what blogging is for?
Until next time,